Another week is about to start

Sunday is almost over and there is a new week just around the corner. The weeks just fly away and the weekends fly even faster... Only 2 weeks left before I get 3 weeks of holiday. :) 3 weeks totally without any plans. I really would like to travel, but I don't have any money so if I'm gonna travel I guess it have to be by car and tent or cheap cabins. It would be nice to go up north and see more of Norway so I might just hop in my car and go. :) Otherwise I have a lot of things to do at home. I have a kitchen I need to do something with, I have a table I would like to fix and I have to clean my guest room so that its ready to be changed in to a nursery. So I have a lot of plans. :D

The last weeks have been tiresome... I haven't got a good night sleep in over 1 week and apparently this night will not be different...Its difficult to be pregnant. ;) But nice. But I have to say that I am VERY looking forward to the first trimester has ended and maybe so the cramps.

Have to try and get some sleep now. I went on a very looooong sunday trip to get some blueberries, but most of the berries are picked. But I ended up with about 1,5 liter so tomorrow I have to pick them clean for all the leaves. :)

My birthday

How to make a good birthday? Mix up good friends, Greek dinner, bowling - oh... and a positive pregnancy test. :) I think that my 34th birthday is one of the best ever! I also got a VERY unexpected gift from my best friends and that made me almost cry... I got a gift card to get started on saving for a new camera. :) I really need a new one because the one I have is starting to be unfocused and has probably been to much out on the road and banged against a mountain and stuff. Poor camera... But I have loved it and used it for all that it is worth! :)

Regarding the pregnancy test - it was a bit scary to take it... I took it on the evening at Wednesday 5th of august and got sooooo happy when it showed 2 stripes! :D The only scary thing now is that I have A LOT of pain in my stomach... That scares me a bit... So on Monday I'm gonna call my doctor. Just to be on the safe side. :) I am not sure if they can give me an answer, but I may feel better after. The pains are terrible at night and when I get up in the morning - but throughout that day I dont feel much. Luckily. So it may just be growing pains regarding my uterus. :) A lot is happening down there right now so Its not a big surprise if it hurts a bit. I just dont like it when it hurts a lot....

So I am crossing my fingers!!! :D

Ok. Summer of 2009 is definitely the worst ever! When it comes to the weather I mean. :) Its raining and raining and raining.... Madonna is in town and she is wearing a BF (in good Norwegian that means Bjørne Fitte - aka Bear Pussy) that is a very fury hat. :) I have one and is loving it at wintertime. I am just thinking poor Madonna who comes here in this awful weather....

The last weeks I have been visiting an old school friend in their cabin at Høvringen, Rondane National Park, I have been another trip to Denmark and between that I have just been working. 4 weeks left before I have vacation. :)

I went on my first running trip in a while yesterday - and that was really a scary experience! I was trying a new route - Lutvann - and that was.... well - awful. First it started by going straight up the hill. Then I got lost. And it started raining... Everything got wet and slippery and i had to climb and crawl to get back to my car. I'm NEVER gonna go there again! Not for running at least. :) To just go hiking - or taking a bath - it is a beautiful place. :) It is crystal clear water and a beautiful scenery so as a recrenational spot I can recomend it. But I really hate the place for running! Didnt help that I have been seen too many episodes of Supernatural eather....

:(

Well - the test was negative and I got my period today. :(

The most scary thing is that I was SOOOO sure!! How is it possible for me to make my body react like that just by using my mind? Or was I pregnant and lost it after a short period? Or maybe it all was just signs that I was getting my period and that my body reacted a bit different since I was extremely busy interpreting the signs as a possibility for being pregnant? Well - these questions will never be answered... So the best thing is to let it be for now. And just try again in a couple of weeks.

A short update

This weekend I had a pain in my stomach - as if I was gonna get my period. That is apparently normal because its between the 8th and 10th day the egg is attaching to the uterus. Only 5 days left before I can take a test.... Cross my fingers its gonna be positive!!!

On the other hand - I FINALLY get back in to the gym yesterday! :) I have lost much of my muscle mass after about 3 weeks with no strength training, but I'm back! ;)

A mood picture from Copenhagen, Denmark

Soooo.... Another week has gone. The training part has been as poor as the last weeks, but I did manage to have my first yoga session at home yesterday! That is not bad! :) The reason the training has been put on hold is because of the terrific weather in Oslo these days. We have had around 30 degrees the last week and that is to warm to be running in for a poor person from the north.... Last Wednesday I had a running date with a friend, but then my car broke down when we were on our way to Sognsvann so now for the last week I have been driving a motor cyckle. It sounded like a good idea, but I have forgotten how scared I am for driving one of them... Well - practise make perfekt and I feel like I can do it a bit better now. :) I dont feel like I'm gonna fall down in every turn I make. :) The biggest problem is that I havent had the energy to go to the gym after beeing sweating on the bike... To be dragging around all the gear in to the gym and lock the bike down with chains and stuff... It just didnt feel like it was worth it.

BUT! I have an ecxiting new thing to tell about! I went to Denmark last friday - the 26/6 - and I got inseminated. So now I am hopefully pregnant. :) Just need to wait another 10 days before I can take a test to be sure. But I REALLY hope so! It costs a lot of money and hurt a lot (more than I were prepared for!) and it was a really big thing to do for a girl on her own, but if it will bring me a baby I'm up for it! :)

It is a bit scary, but I know that this is what I dream of. Cross our fingers!! And I dont want to jinx it so I'm gonna stop talking about it now before I am certain of the result. :)

By the way...

... the "no candy deal" starts on Tuesday...

Obstacles...

Well - this week was SUPPOSED (!!!) to be filled with exercise - but ended up in the couch. I had a terrible week at work with totally NO inspiration - and I just wanted to be somewhere else the whole time. I have had trouble with food this week - my stomach didn't want any and the things I eat doesn't taste any good. I have also committed to a "no candy until august"deal with a friend so this weekend I have eaten to much candy - even if it doesn't taste any good! So now my stomach is really upset and that means no running other places than to the toilet. I have finally managed to eat a couple of sandwiches so maybe I will feel better later. And if I DO feel better I am definitely going out for a run. Maybe Sognsvann who is only 3 km long instead of my usually route on 7 km around Østensjøvannet.

I also need to go to Lutvann and see where I can park. I have a deal with a friend from work to go running out there on Tuesday, but none of us have been there before so I'm sent out on a mission to check out the parking facilities. :) It is close to a military camp so it should not be to big of a deal. I have another plan for a place to exercise too and that is to start running in stairs not far from my job. The place is Svartdalsparken. I am wondering if not the stairs from the old Holmenkollen ski park is still there to... A bit longer to drive, but those stairs are HEAVY to conquer... Maybe I finally will end up with a nice ass. ;)

So - back to the deal about no candy! My body really need good nutrition now... I can feel how terrible my body react on all the sugar and bad fat, so I hope to change my eating habits to be more about vegetables and fruits and white meat. I am not starting a quest to find hidden sugar, but I need to cut down on candy. Chocolate to be more precise. We have agreed that pop corn and potato chips is legal so there will still be a happy Saturday. :) Maybe - after a while - I can manage to cut that out to.

Cross your fingers! ;)

A small update

My change of lifestyle is not exactly going in fast speed - but there are notable changes. Yesterday - for instant - I managed to go quickly up 6 floors to deliver some food to some sick friends! So I am now looking forward to a week with more exercise. :) Last week has been filled with more drinking and heavy dinners than trips to the gym - and now is really not the time to fall back in to the couch.

There may be big news coming soon. ;) So stay tuned...

AA-meetings

I am reading a book right now about an alcoholic cop. He and a doctor who have been an alcoholic too is discussing all the problems the cop will meet when he is trying to stop drinking. And the scary thing is that I can relate to it! Not with drinking (I hardly drink at all. The last 6 months I have been drinking 2 or 3 times) but with candy! Chocolate to be more precisely! I have all the same excuses as he has... "I deserve it!" "Just a little bit wouldn't hurt" "I can stop eating candy when ever I can!".

It's a bit of a shock to find out that I am just like other addicts.... When an alcoholic need to stay of the booze for the rest of his life - how the hell am I gonna stay of sugar? Every time I can declare that I have finally have defeated my chocolate habit - after a while I take just a little piece and soon I eat it every day. Well - I have to admit it is not a shock because I have known that I have difficulty around sugar for a long time, but what hit me is that when this cop have a friend who has beaten the habit to help him through the though times, I have nobody. Of course I can call a friend - but most friends I know have the same habit as I do... To hear them say that I should think about what I do doesn't work since they probably eat as much candy as I do. :)

O'boy its though to defeat this habit! Not that I necessarily want to live my life without sugar, but my health would DEFINITIVELY gain on it. And to eat this much candy is not good for my veins and heart...

Maybe there is a AC-meeting somewhere? ;)

Heading forward!

I am now in the middle of the 4th week of my "transformation" and it goes absolutely beautifully! No - I am not much better at running, but my body is changing and I can feel that I get a bit more muscular. My butt is not sagging THAT much (I thing that I am the only one who can see it, but then again I do this for myself) so in a couple of weeks, maybe I get a little bump on top of it... Hopefully. :)

Last week - since Thursday - I have been training at Elixia with a friend who gave me a gift card and I have learned soooo much more these 7 days than I have done the last year at SATS. Maybe I should change gym? Or maybe I just need to read up on excercising?? :) I tried to do both a studio class AND go for a run last friday, but my legs started to hurt - so this weekend I have taken it slowly to heal and just play with my nieces and hang out with friends. And when I tried to run for 15 min on a treadmill today, my legs were just fine. Hopefully it will keep it up. :) I guess I will find out tomorrow. :)

By the way: Summer is back in Norway! I went out in the woods with my friends and we took the first outside bath this summer! :D Not to bad for an ice cold norwegian... ;)

Week two

It is amazing how soon you can get a bit hooked on exercise when the sun is shining! And it is equally amazing how hard it is to get out of the door when the rain pour down... Week two included NO running, but I trained pilates/yoga on Monday, weights on Friday - and had a very, very, very long walk in the woods (6 hours in Nordmarka) on Sunday. The biggest problem that week wasn't little exercise (I am very satisfied with 3 days!) but I have eaten A LOT of candy! So today - Monday on week three I have sugar abstinence... This week will be a hard one... :(

Over to the good news! I made an exercise program last week and tried it out on Friday and that was very successful! Saturday my arms were acing and that is a good thing. :) So now I am more free to exercise in studio right after work if there is no classes I want to attend. I am still trying to work up my nerves to start cycling to work - but its not tempting early in the morning... I like to get right out of bed and straight to work. :) Maybe another day... I have a flat tire and some how its not fixing itself... Go figure...

Reality check!

Well... First week is almost over. This weeks training is at least, because tomorrow its 17th of may and that is our national day - so tomorrow will be all about ice cream, hot dogs and family and friends. Tomorrow my running shoes will get a bit rest. My new running shoes actually - and they are so new that they don't need a rest. :) I bought them today and they are very good! But they don't make me faster... I guess it will take a couple of weeks before I can start feeling happy about going out to run. Right now it feels like a pain in the ass... I truly, deeply HATE the last hill up to where I live! It makes my legs go sour and I have BIG problem getting up before I can take a brake and stretch. My running route is my Nemesis right now. :)

I ran with my best friend today - and we tried to push each other a little bit. It worked the first time - but the last time I got extremely worn out and almost stumbled in to our goal line. But we managed to shape of the time with 1 minute! Not bad for two runners in terrible shape. :D My friend struggled just as much as I did and that was a bit of comfort to me. She usually is better than me when it comes to lunge capacity (she is usually in better shape than me and I have that damn asthma also), but right now we are quite equal. The most significant difference is that she is more competitive than me. I have no competitive bone in my whole body... I just give up rather than push myself. When I ran the last sequence I could hear one tiny voice yelling "you can do it!!" "Damn you're good!" but there was a stronger voice shouting "Oh, shut up! You are never gonna make it! Why hurt yourself and trying to make a goal that doesn't count in the big world?" And I honestly doesn't understand why I push myself... The world would never explode if I don't make it on a better time than before. I don't think competitive at all. I can hardly remember why I do run. The whole idea of getting in better shape is a goal I only have when I'm sitting in my couch and feel fat and ugly after eating to much candy. I need to practice on thinking more at my goals and remember what I work towards. I need to learn how to think more competitive. Even if the competition is myself and my own body.

So I apparently have more to work with when it comes to my mental health. :) How to stress down and how to be more competitive and focused. Anyhow - I'm VERY satisfied with my week! I have trained 5 days this week. 3 running and 2 in the gym. I have tried to implicate meditation in my daily routine and the only thing that I haven't paid much attention to is the drawing. I'm gonna do that when I feel that I have the training in order. I can't change my world in one time. :) Just starting a little by little...

Day two!

Wow! Quite proud of myself today! I went out and "ran" (mostly walking fast) 7 km today - and I REALLY REALLY didn't want to get out of the couch today. My butt and thighs is really hurting after training yesterday and I have too big running shoes that makes my feet wobbling around in them and makes blisters... Need to buy some new ones, but that have to be next time I get my paycheck. :)

Anyway - I have to say that I LOVE my running tights! They made my butt look almost presentable. :) But what strikes me when I was "running" around was that when other peoples tights are a bit looser around their ankles (?? Is that correct spelled??), mine is quite... well... tight is the word. But who cares?? I can run for a short period of time and is trying to do something about the whole situation so if someone wants to think that I look horrible then let them. :)

Now its time to go to bed soon. I had my dinner and I can recommend this for others who need dinner to be quickly made:


Chop up some coriander.








Chose your favorite meat. Here is chicken.









Boil some pasta.









Add some Crème Fraiche with feta cheese and sun dried tomatoes (VERY very good!!)








And... Voilà! :) Bon apetite! And good night...

Hmf! This was quite a hard start on my new lifestyle... Well - the start wasn't to bad, just my bad shape that was more extremely than I thought!. :) But I did spend an hour in the gym! A very sweaty hour! So I have started my path to health and balance. The toughest part of the day was to ride my bike up the small hill to get home after filling the tires with air... My legs were burning and I was sounding like a hippo (felt like one to) - and OF COURSE did one of my neighbours stand in the door watching me! I guess I can say that was luck in desquise because I have a feeling he likes me a bit to much - and I hope I definitly killed that romance!

Well - anyhow.... Here I am! Day ONE! Sitting in my sofa after exercise and a shower and is thinking of my life. 15-20 kilos to much, stressed out of my mind and with a terrible health regarding my capacity of being active. I cant run 10 meters, I get asthma attacks, I sleep poorly, I feel like a hippo and feel a bit confused on what I am doing with my life. Not in "maybe I should change my line of work"-confused, but just "what do I want to get out of my life"-confused. :)

So I have 9 things I want to make my daily habit:
1 Be active for at least 1 hour a day
2 Eat more fruit and vegetables
3 Drink more water!!
4 Cut down on sugar (a classic!!)
5 Eat more seeds, nuts and beans
6 See if I can do without medicines
7 Do yoga and meditation to ease the stress
8 Train to become a happy runner
9 Draw a little bit to get my creative side a boost

My wish is to be able to run for a longer period of time and make that my main activity instead of being inside a gym - at least for the summer. And if I can transform me to a runner I think my asthma will get much better (and my back pain may go away) and I can cut the medicines to.

Now I need to relax. I had a wonderful dinner with cod, carrots and potatoes and need to rewind a bit before the night. :)

Day one

Well - actually its day zero. Tomorrow I will start yet another new, fresh start on trying to live my life as I ought to be. As a better person in a healthier body and with a healthier mind. I don't think I have to be a better person - because I think of my self as a nice person (haven't got any complaints yet!) but the state of my body and mind is not exactly the best. A bit heavy around the waist and a stressed out mind that doesn't exactly help. :)

So my question to the people out there is: How do you fix stress??